Have you ever missed someone that you wish that could bring back to you? Well that is kinda me. I'm living with my dad because my mother just diapered out my life. Do I miss her dearly but, everytime I would try to talk about her or ask questions about her to my dad he would get mad and leave where we are. I don't have that mother figure in my life and it sucks! but, everything happens for a reason right? or is that just what they say. I still wish I could see my mothers beautifully smile , funniness and caring because now it's adwark when I need bra's and underwear because I don't have my mother to be there and joke around with me about it. Now before when my mother was about or in other words around I did wish she wasn't because she would always baby me or make me do everything she wanted. ,But I do regret that the time when my mother was here that I never appreciated her. Now dad found a new woman and your "kicking it off" as something he would say ,but like I always say it's never the less not my rel. Now don't feel good for my dad because he does bad stuff to now he got shot in the arm because you know selling the stuff only so we could live and have food to eat but, after he got shot he learned his lesson at that time mother was around and you know how it is. I wish I could go back to the day when I was born and erase my mother because she also never stood up for her self she would always back down to dad and that's another door that I'm NOT ready to open... but, Welcome to my life!
